I must've been on firday. I was upset by three male friends. unnecessarily so. I'm sure i was overly sensitive. First it was a friend who lives in Paris and said he wasn't really bothered whether i came to visit or not it was up to me. This was at a time when we were trying to decide on a suitable date for me to go there since i'm exhausted and he has a spare bedroom that i could chill out with in between sipping cafeau laits in the cafes. I took this badly. Im sure he didnt mean it "like that" but what i heard in my mind was "it doesn't matter whether i see u or not". This from someone who phones me at midnight just to see if how I am?! and why did i get so upset???U-(

Then i went to a birthday party where one manager happened to be and the first thing he said was "please don't be late for work tomorrow...." I was livid, thretened to leave the party but then thought to myself "what the heck is wrong with you?" So i went to the bathroom and go a grip on my emontions. I did cry for a minute much later when someone decided to play an awfully melancholic song my Queen and I kept saying I wanted my mummy which muct have been embarassing for them because they know my mother is dead. I say that as a joke but i know some people sometimes get uncomfortabkle.

anyway, a day before that i had thretened to quit work because something wasn't going right. I felt like i was working with ididots and i was tired of being undervalued.

Happily i think my hormones have settled ...a little bit any way. im still tired but i have decided i will go to paris and stay in a hotel and maybe phone him up and ask him to join me for a drink if he's got that, not that im bothered if he doent or doesn't:>. mmhhh, maybe the hormones havent quite settled then. That's the beauty of being a woman:))