He must have gloated to one of his friends about his floppy ways except he probably said how great he was. the friend told me he heard i was with his friend the other night. So i just said he took me to dinner. I am too much of a lady to get into thw whole thing and what i do in private is really my business but i wont have some flop going around making it seem like he isn't sorry excuse for a lover. It was funny the other day. It's not today.

I guess I feel shit about having wasted time on a non-starter. You know, flirting is well and good and when you get promises over time and everything seems like it might be good, it's bloody annoying to be looking back and thinking "i wish i hadn't".

Anyway, i am also just very tired from long days at work, I have left my cousin to her own devices when we should really be catching up. I must confess though, she's been turning heads on the tube, in the streets almost everywhere. There must be something about her to be causing such a commotion. I am not sure i wanna go out tonight or maybe i should just flop in bed.

I hope i'll feel better. I am meant to be going on holiday next month so that should cheer me up really.

I hate sex