I am so knackered. I got up early thinking i had the dentist's(second) AP today, it turns out it's tomorrow. Yesterday was so hectic at work that as soon as I got home i collapsed in bed for over an hour. The day hadn't gone well, a blazing row with nasty manager convicned me I should get him fired once and for all. He went to far when he said to me "you are always making a mess" in front of a customer. It isn't true, and i hadnt messed up anything. He is moving to a different branch but he is getting intolerable. Another manager had to talk to him.

Of course i answered him, told him not to talk to me like that and i did close the till rather hard. His mistake was asking me what the problem was. He was, the dummy! IO am sitting here now, feeling very drained and wondering if I shuld report the full- extent of his bullying. He does have a one year old and i really don't know how he could get another job. Still....

There was a party at the house on friday, my landlords. It was a resounding success, there is still wine and champabge to quaff but i haven't felt like it. This morning he invited me to eat cake for breakfast. I had to decline. I had porridge instead. I am feeling very lethargic and drowsy. I am sure I am a bit dehydrated. I am also turning into a choclolate princess, having a w whole lions, or kitkats or snickers daily and a can or bottle of coke. I wont bitch about wobbly bits them since i am inviting them. I must be a bit stressed but with what? I have a roof over my head and a landlord who is on my side with bills and stuff. Oka, i hate my job but many people hate their jobs.

Oh, I still have tooth acke but wont afford the dodgy amount to fix it(ialthough i was told there was no problem by the dentist. cause for worry if you ask me).

It is probably my period. These days as I get older i am finding my premesntrual stress to be rather acute. When i was a teenager it was awful cramps that saw me crawling on the floor and being given the most potent painkillers. i would literally be in bed that first day. These days it's more emotional and mental. I think i prefer the cramps, and it goes on and on and on. I almost burst out laughing when the guests at the party the other day said I was such a calm and collected person and good for the house.

Clearly they havent seen me on the warparth. Nothing like that charlie from Big brother but i can speak for myself. I felt like i was gonna cry yesterday and took a 20minute time out to go and take deep breaths.

I just wanna get in shape and stop abusing my body with junk and rubbish.I dont like my eggs going to waste every month, it's inconvenient.

I'm just having a blue monday. I am sure tomorrow will be better:)