Maybe i should just call them "the bad men in my life". I don't know what it is about me that attracts totally inappropriate people.. They are either lunatics, they want to be my slave, fancy me, are involved orj ust plain weird.

You might remember Jonny, the guy i went on a couple of dates with, the one who deemed it necessary to take out his member in a car hoping i would lavish it with the attentions of my hot mouth?(I refused and told him to put it back in! ), well he's just come out of the woodworks. After that non-starter i never heard from him again. I wasn't suprised. Don't guys do that? lose interest if you don't put out? which just means you've had a lucky escape?

He sent a rather frantic text, saying what a stranger i'd been and how he'd love to catch up. I got straight to the point, telling him im shocked to hear from him, i wasn't expecting to hear from him after our last meeting. pretending to be a moron, he asked "why?" and i told him that in general guys lose interest if they dont get what they are after and i i wasn't suprised that he did. what i dont get is why he is back.(i can only imagine he has tried the same trick with other girls and they have slapped him or thrown wine/water in his face ). So he had to admit that there was some truth to what i said and that he thinks im "dead sexy" and he would love to explore the rest of my body(he's explore the mouth and felt my tit). He must think i'm stupid. I had delted his digits long ago and the only reason I knew it was him was coz he wrote his name. Gotta give him points for persistence. He tried to wangle a meeting after work, i said"no, no no!", so he's begging for coffee midweek.he's quite excited by the idea of my getting fit(ter) by running. he must get a life.

Then there was a little blast from the pat. A little guy who never forgave me himself for not measuring up to deciever and never forgave me for going with deciever. i could never have dated him. nuff said. Arranged to meet for drinks today. the bastard did not turn up and so he'll get my bile on the phone when he rings. then the friend who is touchy feely whom ive been dodging a meeting with for weeks now. i had to blow him off again today. i don't feel like seeing anyone, besides, im always moving away from him so we have this weird little dance in coffeeshops or bars.

As if that wasn't enough, Geezer rang and asked me to dinner. He must be feeling lonely. I asked him about that woman he was lasting after, i don't think that's going well. the dinner would have been great but probably accompanied by good wine and im on the wagon at the mo so had to say no. besides he might want me to comfort him and get all huggy-huggy. Don't feel like it

The slave has been super-whiny coz i wouldn't see him this week. So: short little guy, Jonny Suck-my-littl-dick-please, geezeer, Touchy feely, slave!

Why can't I just meet normal interesting guys who'll make me look forward to seeing them instead of all these inapporpriate and sometimes bad men?! Where do i find them, I ask you!

Fell off the wagon today. had a bacon sandwich, a hot chocolate and a coffee. i'll run iit off tomorrow