I have a dimella nah, i mean a proper dilemma. I came home to find a note from my flatmate telling me to top-up the heating as he didn't have enough cash and he topped up at the weekend. I have no probelm with sharing bills. from past experiences I usually pay a little more or do a little extra. (a friend tonight told me i put a sign on myself saying walk here". That might be true).

No, what pissed me off is the fact that I know for sure that my flatmate is taking liberties. He has the heating on day and night and so uses most if not all of it. He turns it on in the morning when he wakes up which is about half an hour before I leave. He leaves the flat probably sometime in the afternoon and comes back around midnight or after when i have gone to bed and cranks up the heating again. I am sitting here, swathed in duvets cardigans and whatever to keep warm. In any case my radiator is not very effective.

He has not topped up electricity in a very long time so surely he knows we dontcook and have lights and watch our respective tellies because there is a ghost out ther looking after us! I FUCKING DO IT!! My problem is how to bring up the matter delicately, i realy abhor confrontations and i don't want to start getting panic attacks again because i am stressed and distraught. I am basically paying for his heating which i feel he abuses. come the fuck on, when has it been a prblem to warm up a room and turn down the radiator. What irks me even more is that he earns shitloads seeing how is a a musician and he has lots of projects on the go and wears designer gear. I don't want to have to call the landlord in the carribean or his lawyer somewhere out in the country but i might have to.

Ideas anyone? somethings are learned in hindsight anyway. You know i kept asking landlord about bills and he kept insisting that me and flatmate could work it out. And since i wasnt paying a deposit I guess I have to pay the hard way now.I have calmed down somewhat but i need to sort this out pronto. The bills dont justify the rent or my living conditions and i don't need the stress again.

On a more positive note, i got a pink top for the hen party on Saturday. Sienna, I'll take your Tshirt for another occasion. ok, the top is really "berry" so it's a nice colour and i can wear it again and I got it for a bargain £4. It should have been less but let me stop bitching.

I still need to get an outfit for the wedding. judging by the weather, it will have to be something very, very warm. The snow buggered me up today, i discovered I only had one sock on the one foot. How that happened is still a mystery to me but my toes were suitably frozen plus the tube had a problem and we had to wait for another train when the snow was pelting down. Somebody send me wellies now please. Now that all my hard earned money has gone to providinggas and electricity for a prat i'll have to rethink my finances. Bloody bastard!! I am getting worked up again actually.

I am looking for a pair of knee length boots.Maximum price £30 ok, maybe £35.show me you can bargain hunt and let me know, i have no boots no shoes and it's really getting desperate now

Enough, i am gonna make myself a cuppa and calm down