Maybe it's the aftermath of the chirstmas cheer. Maybe it's approaching the big 30! I don't know, but i am out of sorts. As in, i walk around as if I am sedated. i don't get excited by things which should excite me, i don't react much to anything. One of my friend is worried and suggested I should go and see my GP. But what do i say to the doctor? "hi, i am feeling dopey can you fix me?" i don't think so. I am probably in some kind of denial but i am only slightly worried about my lack of...well my lack of liveliness i guess. Since working myself up inot a state over nothing the other day, I have now crashed and just feel numb.
what to do? ii guess, i could run around screaming down protobello road, that should snap me out of it as i am sure someone will call the police unless some pot-smoking rasta catches me first
. Maybe it's just a case of the blues and i should get over it.
Oh i have guilt issues. my cousin is planning a trip with friends. she doesnt have money. I owe her. she is not asking for it but the fact that she mentioned it is making me feel awful. Also she sent me a piture of herself in hotpants. she went to a sunny place during xmas. she looked divine. Great legs no cellulite. I dont think i could get away with hotpants. she says ive got an athletic bbody and no stomach, that's sort of true but i have hips. anyway, i want her white che guevara t-shirt. her hotpants are of the comouflage variety. very hot! No i dont have the hots for my cousin but she looked great.
anyway, i'll shake myself out of this moodiness. Might have a date next week, watch this space