It's been a rather gruelling week and a half. i cannot belive i have not been online in any capacity for more that a week. i was definitely starting to get wthdrawal symptoms. Most people seem to be losing their marbles, runnning around like headless chiockens, buying present that people do not want. i have already recieved a tin of very sugary and buttery scottish biscuits, as well as a huge tray of chocolates. fair enough, the person who bought the biscuits was just being practical, they know about my dicey existence. i had three this morning and felt full for quite a while.

As for the chocolates, i had a toffee last night. i might have to throw the rest away unless someone wants them. clearly they were very expensive but i can't devour them all. As things stand, i have already gained half a stone(3kg) for indulging in Mcdonalds burgers, going to a couple of xmas patries and just eating endlessly. stragenly enough i have not been drinking...well bar last night when i had a couple of glasses of wine.

Quick updatw on what's been happening: went to a party last weekend where i demolished a bottle of wine9i was drinking water in between so dont wag your fingers yet!) . The part was in north london, I stayed at my friend's place in canary waharf after being stranded for ages in liverpool street, with no buses or taxis forthcoming. by the time we got to her digs, it was 4:30am, i had to be at work at 7am. so i jumped in the shower, had a cuppa tea and slept for less than 1hr. There was a boy at the party who really thought he was gonna score with me. while walking us to the busstop, we all started chatting and being slightly tipsy i mentioned that i was wearing a thong which had "if i don't get my way everyone is going to suffer" across it. naturally he got really excited and wanted to see it. i had to fight him off. Two of the male friends we were with thought it was all innocent but i know a horny boy when i see one. he suggested that he had a shower i could use not too far from where we wear and i could wear his boxers(when i said something about not wearing the same knickers again). Fortunately the girlfriend and i made it onto the bus, I had to drag her on as she was concerned about the male friends. They were going back to the party. she wasn't even tipsy the bus driver was already moving on but i was vocal enough and he stopped:p So no more sleeping for one hour. at my age these things take a toll

The cassanova at work decided to flirt with me that very morning at work. I mean he has never been so blatant before and i went along with it. At the end of the day, he kissed the one girl on both cheeks goodbye. he then asked to kiss me as well and he planted hs smackers right by the corner of my lips. im sure that was deliberate. when i turned for the second cheek...oh well, let just say he stole a quick one. i really had to get away fast cozim sure the alcohol was still slightly in effect and we could have snogged properly. it was still fun. everyone said how happpy i was during the day. i told them i was on drugs and it was the manager who sold them to me. he didn't know how to respond to that(the manager).

This past weekend casanova was feeling sick. rather quite i think he was there just for one hour and went home. I sidled up to him and ran my hand up and down his back and told him i'll kiss it all better. He visibly perked up and even smiled slightly:p. The other girl said "you've got the right medication don't you?". I purred"i've always got the right remedies babe". pity he was ill. maybe not actually. he flies off to poland on xmas eve but it's been fun. His girl says she has called the whole thingg off. it never got off the ground actuallly which is sad.

I wasn't gonna join in the christmas madness. i actually think it all went out the window the year my father died. suddenly there were no decorations or presents under a tree and i think we never put up decorations again. We also buried my mother literally 3 days before christmas a couple of years ago so it's still a bit raw really. It's not bad so don't think i'm whingeing but it gets to me a bit and im trying to avoid stress. i was looking for a crad for a friend of a friend today who is a manic depressive and it was difficult to find a suitavle card. most individual ones are for couples/wives/mother/father and so on. eventually i found one which i hope is approrpiate and will lift her spirits.

Otherwise, all is well, i saw flatmate this morning after 10 days or so of not seeing him at all. Life is good

P.S. If i do not post before next year, have yourselves a peaceful christmas and best wishes for 2007. live life, leave the regrets from 2006 behind and look forward to a new tomorrow.