Saw a woman i used to care for today in a coffeeshop. i did a double take. She looked so well. dont think she recognised me. As i sat down with my tea and a book i was intending to read, i agonised over whether to go over and say hello or pretend like i hadnt seen her. We got along at the time. i remember she was undergoing a gruelling treatment for cancer and she had a colestomy which some of her previous carers had found distressing or disgusting when they had to help her wash or watching her empty it. i just got on with things and learned a lot from her.
For the life of me i couldn't remember her name, first of last
. I couldnt concentrate on my book and kept glancing back to see if she was still in the shop. Eventually i just walked over, said hello, introduced myseld and we had a wonderful chat. She remembered me and had also been wondering if it was me that she'd seen while picking up her coffee. Her tretement went well, she thinks the cancer will come back but then, lamost a year ago she belived she wouldn't see her 50th wedding anniversay. it has come and gone. I was very glad to see her and promised to visit after the christmas mayhem. That was a highlight in my day today. Seeing someone who was on the brink of death at one point getting out and about.lovely.
Another client who had an operation on friday rang me today to tell me she misses me. i had rung several times and left messages to see how it all went. i'll visit tomorrow. I actually never imagined i would become friends with a lot of the people i deal with. They are so diverse and they have brought out a level of patience in myself i never thought i possessed. they think i'd make a wonderful nurse. Clearly they don't know me well enough!
Since im in dire need of new underwear, i trwaled the shops in the west end yesterday and continued today. perhaps i am being fussy but either the stuff wasnt worth the price on the tag or it's just a vile combination of colours! Since when has pinck and white, pink and black, polka dots being the best colours for underwear. i am at my tethers end. someone plese tell me where i can get decent underwear. i dont mean bloomers. sets of things and bras. no mickey mouse patterns or over-elaborate lace and chicken filling. good luck im sure someone out there knows exactly where i can go. . simple back, or blue or heaven forbit dark pink or pruplish will do. i can tgo on the way im going so it's a desperate situation really.
I haven't cooked in so may days now, i should cook and eat properly tonight. i went a bit crazy yesterday morning and mopped the kichen and bathroom and scrubbed everything. i think im getting some kind of obsessive disorder when it comes to cleanliness. I should be in my own house and see whether i would behave the way im behaving. maybe it's the stress who knows.
I think i should have a dinner party for my friends before they all fuck off for x-mas. i'm not sure what i'll be doing but it would be nice to sort of have a rehearsal dinner and see how i cope on the day. I wont get trashed...maybe a little bit