Two women. One tortured. one on autopilot. That was my take on the two subjects of the C4 documentary last night. A beautiful woman with a very handsome boy(16yrs) who deliberately had a son with a married man years ago. She did it on purpose she admitted it. She thoguht he'd leave the wife and start up with her? well sh'e been tourtured ever since.So now she is a professional mistress. Only goes out with married men because she cannot invest her emotions in the whole thing and get hurt. She is avoiding being hurt. Her son(such piercing blue eyes:p) wants her to get someone who will look after her and appreciate her. I felt sorry for her coz she wont even give herself a change. Her need not to be hurt supercedes anything else that may come her way.

Then there was another woman who went out with this guy for two years, happy in the knowledge that she came first before the guy's wife. Clearly delusional because nobody comes before anyone's family. He said that to her to lure her. The a friend dropped a bombshell that the guy's wife was pregnant. That put paid whatever dreams she was habouring. What i couldn't understand is why she thought them not having a baby yet meant they were together. She was still a mistress, being seeing him in seret etc etc. I think the problem was the sex part. She should have listened to the first woman who (emotionally crippled as she was) said they have to be willing to share her with other men, after all she shares them with their wives.

Poor souls, there she was, ringing the guy over and over, looking for closure. Saying how she gave 100% etc etc and she wanted her things. Therwe his things out, send him a text basically telling him he was scum. They actually reminded me of two women I know. Just like the women in the Doc, one is white, one Black. The balck woman was horrified to hear the guy was having another child with a white woman she said incredulously!! her friend told her he is not worth it, let him go but i suspect it's gonna take her a long time. I had a discussion with one of the women I know after. She is in a better place, the other one....oh well god's speed is all I can say)

The night before of tcourse was that one on penis size. there was a guy who officially has the biggest penis . 113 and a half inches flaccid. they showed it. they had to pixillte the engorged one in case we fainted i guess. he gave up on women a long time ago. sex with men is better although he said one guy circled the bed a few times thinking, "how the heck am i going to accomodate that". he's had a couple of oscar winners apparently and he is legendary in hollywood. he refuses to do porn so far.

Amazing stuff really. did anyone see it?

I have taken four books out of the library, i am half way thru one now. I wont be watching anymore late-night docs although i was alughing my head of. the things people say and do sometimes just beggars belief.