Was meant to meet a friend after work today. She wanted to see me, rang a couple of days ago and yesterday. I rushed thru work today. Called her: no answer. then i sent a text to ask where we should meet. she replied saying she was sick, has to cancel.

She's cancelled at the last minute before and im getting fed up with it. one time she left it till a couple of minutes before the appointed hr then said she was feling down coz she saw her flatmate and boyfriend kissing and it depressed.(she is single).

But you see, im rearranging my life everytime to accomodate her. I think she takes me for granted. i'm not sure she if sick today. she might be but given her track record wher our relationship is concerned i have to wonder. I think she knows i will always make time for her but i am starting to resent her behaviour.

One of these days i'll snap and i wont be sorry. i'm not a doormat and really i don't need to be messed about. well maybe she's just weird. maybe i am weird who knows. I don't think i've told anyone i'm sick just to avoid meeting them but i know i have cancelled meetings because i didn't feel like it. However i didn't do it when people were already waiting for me at the appointed place! I don't think it's fair but there you go.

I'm gonna go off and have yesterday's left-overs now. The fish turned out rather well and i shared with flatmate who was sooo grateful

life at the moment sucks but as a "clever dick" once said: this too shall pass. Sooner rather than later i hope