Had those for lunch, In fact the entire day, a huge fat bagfull. bleugh!! I feel utterly sick now went shopping, I think i've gone up a dress size. Shit! but the bras were still a cup down. So those jelly beans went straight to my hips coz I had a problem getting a pair of trousers on. maybe it's coz they were narrow. But i'm worried. Felt really felt. probably looked it Maybe it's in my head.

On the plus side, I tried on a top that gave me the most wonderful cleavage. yes, with the two grapes I have now. reminded me of a time when i had a most amazing cleavage. I must have been a teen then. Drat!

In the end i didn't buy anything. I'd already had a couple of glasses of wine, courtesy of a client's daughter who claimed it was her birthday. She isnsist that i have a glass. wasn't bad, then I had to have a second(she was on her third and it was clearly going to her head judging by how she was babbling ). I declined a third and bolted, having had nothing to eat the whole day that would have been asking for trouble. DRank water. So obviously by the time i left the shops my ballder was ready to burst. And just like sod's law, the public toilets were closed, I could either piss in my jeans or on the tube or hold it till I got home. I opted to hold it and drank coke out of frustration. Don't know how I made it. all that sugar, but it was sweet relief when i finally went "hglsshhh". Then of course I had to rush and make food.

Im gonna cut out carbs with immediate effect...we;l maybe i can start at the weekend. Deciever's movie/doc premiers this friday. Fuck i need to look fabulous. Wish i could afford a facial. i have tickets already. didn't ask him for freebies, he could have offered. I'm gonna look stunning, he's gonna stare and think "if only...". I'll then smile sweetly, say hello and move on to other more interesting people. watch him come and interrupt my conversation. he's done it before. Silly man