Im tired. I'm energetic.I'm impatient. I'm a patient. I laugh. I don't cry. That's a good thing. Do I sound like a paradox? Maybe i'm one. The mad Princess

Flatmate just upped and left today. On holiday. wpouldn't say where. we(me and the other girl and their friend) suspect she is going to the Ex. She's hinted they are back together. she borrowed money from the new girl after asking her friend who said no. she wouldn't dare ask me of course. she's taken liberties for too long.

I have texted to wish her a happy trip and warn her to be careful. I hope she will be.

I'm going for blood tests on monday. To rule out anything else that might be causing all these symptoms im having. It's definitely not in my head although Dr suggested going to anxiety management classes for palpitation. Thing i know what has been causing them, i don't really want to attend some classes in nottinghill but i'll think about it. he thinks I'll go. I won't. not yet anyway.

I should be happy that he didnt saying i was dying. afterall only the good die young maybe i'll die afterall

I can but only wait and see. the struggle continues