I got into one of my my moods yesterday. thiniking about my life, how im not getting anywhere, what i need to do, blah, blah,blah!

I promptly stepped into a nearby tesco. naah,actually i was coming from the library, so i specially made the trip, bought lambrini(i imagine it's the cheapest sparkling wine for broke beings like myself:)) and then agonised over cheese cake. God I must have gone up and down that isle five times, standing and starring at the cheesecakes, (the rasperry variety or chocolate) for 10minutes at a go. Eventually I succumbed and bought it. I them tried to redeem myself by buying skimmed milk, which i have been drinking for the past two weeks anyway.

I got to the flat and cooked myself rice with chilli, some carrots,whate else, oh i think sweet potatoes and whatever else i could find. It was nice my little concoction and i chilled the lambrini while i ate.

Soon I was guzzling away my sorrows and bad mood. I ate the one slice of the cake but then decided fuck it, im having another one. i can always run up and down the stairs if i feel bad, which i didnt!

My roomamtes have made peace:) one of their mutual male friends came and forced them to talk and thrash out their issue. So they said hello yesterday in front of me and another girl who is visitng. But now, the other flatmates just called asking me if im going for another farewell do that my rommmate has invited her to. Well, i havent been invited, not that i give a shit, besides im working tomorrow. and now she is ringing her to decline coz she's gonna go out with her friends instead. well, it was a shortlived truce. i think she would have gone if i was but...oh god, never mind!;)

Ive been out buying stuff that i will actually be able to put around my room. YES my room on Sunday evening!! I used my credit card and warned the cashier that imn trying it out it might get declined. Imagine my delight when it said"card approved!":) :) i was so pleased. i should have gone on a spree long ago, but then im sensible and i will need to be for the next couple of months while i battle rent on job-lesssness possibly.

Have a great weekend!