I survived my first day at the coffee place. I am not working with my friend which is great because she is like a drill seargent. i will have a problem geting there tomorrow morning though coz the tubes start running at 7:15, the time i should be there.

Im starving right now though, only had a sandwhich on a 20min break. Im sure that is against the law but what can i do? I go there at 6:45, the alarm was going and the was a girl there who said she had opened and ulocked door(why would they do that) and that triggered off the alarm. the person who has the key is always late apparently(thanks for letting me know bastards! ) so all we could do was wait. the rest of them(whose names i cant remember at the moment) trickled in slowly. eventually we started setting up and got on with things. I made a few blunders but they weren't that big and actually at the end of my shift the manager who also happens to co-own the place told me i did very well and he is proud of me. and to think the girl who recommended me sent a text to say i should have another trial because i will be working with the owner? like he is some ogre and i need to shiver in my...tariners(still searching for those elusive boots

I declined a possible date with R on wednesday(primarily because he wanted to cook for me and also said he cooks great breakfast), he pressed me for sunday, i said monday. i dont want to go to his place. I think my mind is made up, I really gave him a chance. i know i kinda see him differntly after a couple of glasses of strong wine but he does have that belly and it's a bit of a turn off. perhaps i would overlook that if the guy could kiss. I mean what is so difficult about that? so doing the fish pucker thing dont work for me. Twice now and im like...hello, are we going anywhere??!! I just dont know how to fuck him off without hurting him, fuck him off in terms oof saying"lets just be friends" coz i'd hate that if it was said to me. it has been once actually and it's like a blow, but that was too invloved. we've only shared a couple of forgetabble kisses(on my part).Help me!!! please. i like him as a person and enjoy his company, so perhaps he is persisting coz i seem elusive?

anywa, enough about him. Roommate has been really nice. we had a late night chat the other day and watched telly together. that celebrity big brother. God, they said Dennis Rodman brought in extra large condoms. well is is thin and very tall with very large feet so.... i wouldnt want to be the one to see what those condoms wrap up. But i think him and Jodie Marsh could get it on!!

Right, im gonna fuck off and go make myself something to eat. I have been on a strict diet of boiled veggies, skimmed milk, fruit lots of juices and water. i fell of the wagon yesterday coz a friend bought me a massive pizza which we shared, plus fries plus a salad. i will not be making that mistake again. And i have been taking stairs instead of the lifts and running up the escalators which is really trying on my lungs but i shall persevere!
cheers