The princess looked in the mirror several times today and asked the person staring back a few questions. No actually she assesed this person. She looked tired, she looked 10 yrs older but others would argue she was being harsh as usual. But that person looked unwell. lined across the forehead, lines she has had since, well since she strated wrinkling her forehead at age 14 trying to see if she could get lines like her math teacher. Big mistake.

She then assessed the general skin condidtion of this person looking back. It looked a bit dead, dehydrated maybe, the eyes had no sparkle, but the smile was still there. This person could still summon a striking smile at will. Yet she looked resigned, like all the "weight" she has borne with such courage thrughout the months was finally breaking her back.

Princess asked her who she was and what she wanted out of life. She went into a bit of a panick. NOt a good move then. she calmed herself down and read a newspaper instead. Still feeling agitated, she went to call her brother, they spoke for over an hour about nothing and everything. Princess developed an earache which has turned into a serious headache now.

I would call it a stress headcache, or tension headache. She is worried over some stupid paper to fulfill her degree, she is worried about employment , she is worried about a place to stay but so is everyone else, about all those things in varying order of improtance. So she is not unique. Well not when it comes to those issues anyway.

Back to the person on the other side of the mirror.She told the princess to remind herself of all the positives she has pushed to the bottom of her bottomless despair. She the Princess to feed her and hydrate her because she is responsible for what that mirror is showing her.

She told her to piss off and have a laugh somewhere because she can't bear what she is looking at instead. It brings her too much pain and haggard as she looked, it wasnt helping her cause.

So what do we see when we look in the mirror I ask. do we see who we are, what we want to be, who we wish we were, sadness, happiness, love, hate, loathing, fear, all of the above or none of the above?

I will look again tomorrow and maybe i will have an answer...