I do believ these out of the way newsagents rip off gullible and desperate damsels like myself without a tinge of shame or remorse.

I bought an umbrella an hour ago since our forsaken city of london pisses down whenever it feels the urge. nevermind that it might be feeling all sweaty, taking off its sweater called clouds and leaving us blistering in the sun or hot air for that matter. I had to buy the stupid umbrella. been running around richmond the whole day, i had to go to putney, got off the tube and that meant sleeping there waiting for the piss to stop or buying one of those cheap umbrellas. It looks mangled already. I asked the guy, looked him in the eye and asked him to tell me straight how long it would last. oh, he gave me one of those benign"im innocent look", showed me his palms and told me it depends on usage.

A load of rubbish but what could i do? i was desperate, he wasnt. now i will have to walk in the rain anyway, coz the thing is broken. fuck, fuck, fuck,. not the brollie but being ripped off.

i survived my first day working as a carer, those poor souls. one lady is 90, she looks 70. amazing! my feet hurt and i think i want some chicken broth now.Bj says he can cook chicken in many different ways so i will be waiting.

as for my meeting with the shrink, that's tomorrows blog.i need to get cracking on my uni desseration. why me i ask!!!

Ciao