I am feeling out of sorts today. It has to do with the fact that i was feeling a bit sick yesterday, and that whole incident with bimbo when i was leaving deciever's house affected me.So my liver recovered a bit, i had a nandos meal, nothing elaborate just some rice, chicken(after all that chicken from carnival), and then I went to bed after mid-night. I am now sitting in my class of graphic designing doing jack shit. I slept on the bus(had to take three buses to come to this forsaken place.
No breakfast so I am a bit hungry, I feel a little tired ut maybe im depressed. Nothing from Deceiver ofcourse(what did I expect), had a call from a friend whom I feel sorta chickened out of what could've happened with us. understandably so after his last ex(psychotic). Now I guess I am lonely(emotionally and need a hug). god how sad is this
On the bright side, I have been invited to go an watch a play tomorrow. Its apparently press night but The person I am going to ditched another journalist to go with me. he thinks I might contirbute better to his article, he made it clear that he doesnt need my help. coz he doesnt(he is well over 60 with a lot of experience). but i will get to meet one actor and i am over the moon about meeting this particular person. maybe my luck with work will change...maybe its wishful thinking.
Miss christain called to confirm our date for friday. she is cooking dinner for me and basically wants us to sit and talk. Undersatnd that to mean, her trying to convert me into a born again christian, lots of praying and singin. I dread it. couldnt say no. not the best way to spend a friday evening. maybe there will be divine intervention.
On saturday deciever's friend invited me to a perty at his house. deiever a will be there, he said to bring a friend, I want to go, it should be fun, but fuck it im not feeling emotionally stable.
Went to the women's clinic yesterday. I have lost 2kg. want to lose a couple more and really start excercising and get toned. no its not vanity, i want to look good, and maybe have happy hormones flowing thru my system.
Im gone, sorry i sound so lame, Im keeping all knives away from my wrists!
