fuck this! i have just put my raw feelings down and the whole thing has gone and disappeared. I can't go back coz I have to rush out.
basically I saw a barbie who used me to hook up with the deceiver last year yesterday. It hurt me incredibly. there is emotional closeness there that we never had and I wanted to scream, such was the pain I felt inside.
Why did i have to see her? i mean this bitch pretended to be my friend. however, i could see he was inetersted so whats the point of fighting for someone who isnt into you anymore, or is giving u mixed signals and confusing you? I was too fucked up to get out anyway so i let the whole drama play out to the bitter end.
of course to this day he denieds that there is something between him and barbie, i mean even Stevie wonder and ray charles can see it, as can everyone else. who's foolin' who here?
Im not sure I should meet him tomorrow as scheduled, what i saw yesterday is just bringing back bad memories. How do i broach the subject though? i mean it's my issues not his. he doesnt give a shit and to him we could just pick up where we left off(you know a dog will take any bone it's offered). But this whole thing is wheighing on me and i need to get if off my chest.
I gotta rush, please let me know if there is anyway to recover a draft when its not posted yet.
I don't think you can recover what you wrote. That's happened to me before so what I do is..highlight and copy the text just before I click 'save' you could write it in Word but this way's easier.
He might not have done anything yet but it sounds like he's setting it up. Big body swerve, my friend, less pain in the end. xxx (oops didn't mean that to rhyme)