The weekend is almost over and my cold has now turned into a cough. Nothing too bad, but enough to curse and wish to banish it to hell...wherever that is. I'm still a bit nasal,a girlfriend said i sounded funny yesterday but she said she could tell i was sick.
I might have aggravated the cold by going out on friday. I hadn't intended to. It was a friend's birthday, I had intended to chill out with her for a coupla hrs and gone back to mine, but no, she was running late. A bunch of her other girlfriends steadily arrived(i wasnt even dressed to go out, and we had to wait on her highness and till almost 9:30pm. this was from 6pm that day. The issue: HAIR!!! Jesus,(i don't mean to take his name invain) but what is the issue with women and their hair?
I know it sounds a bit strange me being a woman and all but gosh to have to wait for three hrs! in the end we ad to fork out money wherever we went. It was alright, many delectable men there although i wasnt out on the prowl. How could I with the cold and all, but i did dance with a coupla guys and saw a few more ogling. I believe it was in appreciation and not because they necessarily had impure thoughts. Although I wouldn't blame them if I were them watching me dance!
Ok, let me stop with the narcissistic bullshit. It was great, we all went to bad around 4:30am. I couldnt bring myself to eat Mcdonalds at 4:00am like they all did. filthy habit i thought. It's all really mind over matter when you eat at inappropriate times(look who's talking).
It's bright and sunny today, so I will take a walk in the park and maybe go to a spiritualist church later this evening. I only go to the place occasionally and only because they have mediums . I perpetually hope someone from the other side(actually my mother will come thru and tell me she is ok). her death recently was horrific at the hands of a hospital and i need to reconcile myself with that.
otherwise, it's been a good weekend. I have just read a book by an author i discovered called Anita Shreve this one is called:Strange fits of passion.
That woman knows how to pull your emotions every-which-way. No, she is not soppy, her writing is eloquent and lyrical and you are always left reeling and pondering stuff. Deep yes, but great. I have read four of her books now. gripping stuff. try them and tell me what you think. Another one that struck a cord was "The last time they met"
other than that, it looks like i might be getting work in the next two weeks i hope so, fuck i need it. And the deciever(sorry but he prompted this blog so i have to give him his due.haa!haa)called, wants to hang out if i have time. I told him he sounded really busy, what with meetings and other things. So, he said he will be free on tuesday. I will see if I am. Part of me wants to play this out, and another just wants to shut down. I am trying to be honest with myself, pehaps I don't know how. All I know is that i am not like i was before, the emotional roller coaster has ebbed and i can spend time alone without him creeping into my thoughts. tats a great continuation i think
