I went out to a market in dalston today. lots of fish everywhere. most of it smelly.lots of people and african food. Inetersting stuff. I then went off to camden town with the two girls I was with. We were hoping to get chinese food for £2 before the market closed. we were too earlky and had to fork out £4 each. it was alright, i'm still full.

I was intending to stay in, but I'm feeling a little frisky.so maybe i will pop dowm to the pub or something. The guy wants to meet again. I'm telling you, this is what is called a mindfuck! your head gets so screwed, you can't bring for a few seconds, you stop talking mid-sentence with your friends because of a few words.

I will become friendlier and keep spychos at arms length as I have been adviced. But how does one know whether they are dealing with a cruel manipulator or not?do we judge based on our unreliable reaction or is a sixth sense supposed to kickin and alert us. what is it we are suposed to listen to. head or heart? can they both be misleading?

I do hope though most normal people don't evoke such a mixture of feelings from others. It's something I don't feel I can cope with.
Same pattern emerging.
aaaaarrrrggghhh!!!!