I think I am going to kill myself. No, this is no drama. I cant take this hell anymore. Why should one have to suffer this way?? it's not worth it!! A friend yesterday told me life is all about luck, which is why some people "push their" luck and it doesnt work out for them, with others things just come easily.
I cannot believe that we are put on this earth so we can "try our luck!". That is absolute bullshit. I had a discussion yesterday with two born again girls about the merits of prayer and how God solves everthing etc... Cant buy into that.
Maybe the next life(haa haa) will be better. I am actually too much of a coward to just end my life so unless someone has a better solution(besides "things will get better" "life is all about challenges" then i am all ears. what i am going thru now emotionally and every other way.... its just time to pack it in I reckon